Sunday, December 8, 2013
from les iPhoto archives - sweet mini roses / lobelia avec Miss Betty / cherry tomato harvest / dogwood berries on the crescent beach / golden rod with a bee / begonias / Japanese windflowers / fantastic bold snapdragons
Living with integrity means: Not settling for less than what you know you deserve in your relationships. Asking for what you want and need from others. Speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension. Behaving in ways that are in harmony with your personal values. Making choices based on what you believe, and not what others believe. - Barbara De Angelis
colour, the brighter the better, flowers, values, integrity & remembering my personal mantra (below) this Sunday morning
I will always tell the truth. My truth. I will be authentic.
I will be brave, thoughtful, & assertive. I will set my boundaries with care, kindness & grace whenever possible. I will choose discomfort over resentment.
Friday, December 6, 2013
more scenes from my most recent visit to church - my favourite big poplar trees standing naked for the winter / at the crescent beach / rose hips / view from the far end of the crescent / more lichen love / sea grass / mussels / golden blaze & foggy seaweed strewn beach / fog & the gorgeous smell of the salt air - LOVE
If God said, 'Rumi pay homage to everything that has helped you enter my arms,' there would not be one experience of my life, not one thought, not one feeling, nor any act, I would not bow to.
oh my 2013 - you have been a humdinger, you have put a shit kickin' into me.
You have been an extremely trying year. You have been difficult, continually anxiety & fear inducing. This year I have failed repeatedly, made huge mistakes, fallen down, picked myself back up, fallen down again & again & again. You 2013 have made me angry, sad, worried, anxious (so anxious in fact that I have a pain in my stomach way too much of the time). You have been a busy year, far too busy, too busy to think straight busy. 2013 you have sucked, you have been way too hard.
Failure is the condiment that gives success its flavour.
If you remember my one little word for this year was "ease" (insert tres ironic & boisterous laugh track here). As we near the end of this year 2013 (& good riddance I yell), Grace thankfully has arrived, late to the party as usual, but with Grace's arrival I'm realizing that Yes, this has been the year of the hard knocks, this has been the year of mistakes & failures (and big ones). It has also been the year of intense & invaluable learning and growth, I can see that now. Frustrating as it is while you're mired in the muck of bad decisions & uncomfortable feelings, once cracked open those baddest bads always hold the golden tickets - the tickets that allow you to leap and bound forward fast and furiously, more confidently into the future holding Grace's hand as you go. The baddest bads inevitably hold the greatest lessons. The baddest bads teach you, the hard way, what you do not want & what you will not stand for. & can I have a hallelujah for that most excellent nugget ?
Success is stumbling from failure to failure
with no loss of enthusiasm.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
the crescent beach - mild & fog / our pine tree / lichenologist love / deadly nightshade berries / portrait on the crescent beach / leaves like feathers / beauty & calm / dew / seaweed
I have a lot of faith. But I am also afraid a lot, and
have no real certainty about anything. I remembered something Father Tom had told me--that the opposite of faith is not doubt, but certainty. Certainty is missing the point entirely. Faith includes noticing the mess, the emptiness and discomfort, and letting it be there until some light returns.
Anne Lamott - from Plan B: Further Thoughts on Faith
being in nature, exploring, observing & photographing nature feels like church to me - it is church for me