re stuff

8 x 10 mixed media collage on coffee stained water colour paper - Susan Black

oh my ... today is supposed to be day 1 of a 7 day staycation - ya huh ! who am I kiddin'.

In hindsight it was kind of a silly idea, one I planned weeks ago as a physical & emotional prize/reward for drivin' it as hard as I have been for the last many months. Deadline after deadline after deadline - shocking myself to pieces honestly (who is that masked gal) with the stick to it, no dithering, cruisin' along like a jet plane on fire 'tude.

Perfectionism with a timeline - oops there's the bell ! hands up and walk away from the desk - it's as good as it gonna get girlfriend. Next !!

So here we are on the eve of August and I'm pretty close to being all caught up. My in-box is almost empty. I'm suffering a little from that doin' spell - you know the one where suddenly after the non stop-a-go-go cha-cha-cha of doin' winds down you don't really know quite how to put the breaks on and shift gears and even worse, shhhh ... I almost don't want to - yikes ... I've been using my super-power care (in a definite OCD* kinda way) at full capacity & my batteries are drained, my neck & shoulders are sore & I should have, I need, some re stuff in my life

some relaxin', some rehab, some rethinking - where am I going this last half of 2012 ? Where do I wanna go ? How 'bout some more reinvention, revolution, a lil' releasing, more renewal, a petite retreat - I've shown myself these last 6 months what I'm capable of  ... now I want these last 5 months of 2012 to absolutely kick ass  ... but with a little rest in between.

*OCD - an intense & obsessed attention to meticulous detail - a fatal flaw and a gift at the same time

& lastly the tres appropriate song stuck in my head on this morning's walk with the D girl ;-)