daring

mock orange / Winnie early morning on the boardwalk / palest pink peonies / that darn Betty on the boardwalk following us / fresh peas from the market / blue daisy-like chickory / Missy D & her side kick B / hanging basket / Betty hangin' out on top of Doug's truck / my sweet love / hot pink peony bouquet 

I believe that the most important single thing, 
beyond discipline and creativity is daring to dare.

Maya Angelou

I used to feel so brave. I think back at things I've done, places I've gone and I scare myself. Though I wasn't afraid then, not like I am now. You might remember I chose the word "ease" as my one little word to guide me through this year 2013. Well that word ease has kind of made a mockery of me. I have not felt ease, in fact I've felt more unease in the last 6 months than I can ever remember, it's a desperate unsettled feeling, of dread, of fear, mistrust, doubt, even paranoia at times. It's the exact opposite of ease. I keep hoping it's an instance of sometimes things get worse before they get better. I guess I could look at it differently, like "ease" chose me because I need ease and I do, more than anything but I can't seem to really find it and I feel much too afraid, too cautious to try to be daring.