Monday, May 5, 2014
Creative Empire Head Quarters, the beloved teak topped desk avec most excellent partner in crime Buddha boy, my favourite dog & creative director ... the very handsome and very athletic Oliver
Fully inhale your dream
and completely exhale manifestation of it.
T. F. Hodge
We're on the home stretch of my latest big (12' x 5') very scary project - my deadline is Wednesday. All the really hard tedious work work is done and now I'm in the fun stage - where I compile all the separate pieces I've been working on into the final art. Collage, collage, collage, lots of typography, pattern & more. I am so thrilled to be once again at this place, this realization that omg ! yet again I may pull this off, the chances are looking really good. I must remember to breath ... that's a normal symptom of this kind of career changing project/opportunity. Holding my breath 'til I'm gasping for air (literally & figuratively) I can't tell you how many times in the last 3 weeks I've had to talk myself down from that - I can't do this & I am going to fail miserably place - way too many times to count.
Not an unfamiliar feeling but the bigger the aspirations the worse the fears - it's plain & simple.
I'll be able to share the visual of this project in just a few weeks and you'll see then that much of my time creating this artwork has been spent doing painstakingly slow, tres time consuming painting and/or collaging. Fortunately not all of that time was spent attempting to terrify myself. A good portion of that time (it's been nearly a month since I started) I've been using to begin a new manifesting cycle. Treating myself to some emotional self care & of the most extreme kind. Those of you who have been visiting here since the early days of this blog (2007) know that pretty much all of my past dreams have come true, in fact lots of bonus dreams, dreams I didn't even realize I had, have come true also. I am filled to the brim with gratitude and with a wonderful bolder, braver kind of confidence. I have faith in me, true faith.
I am ready to begin manifesting big, beautiful new dreams & Oliver's happy to manifest with me - love him xo
When you do what you fear most,
then you can do anything.
Posted by Susan