bon jour

bon jour - mini poster art print

And another bonne jour it is. A cold windchill day (sad face) but the good news is the heavy veil of queasiness has been lifted in one fell email (and only #2) in which it became crystal clear that this was not to be a match made in heaven or otherwise (for all of you who have been on the edge of your seats since yesterday's Queasy report). I'm feeling, this early morning, tres relieved and happy to find out these glaring differences in compatibility so soon out of the gate and it seems Mr Monsieur is not at all interested in affairs of the platonic nature so hey who am I to argue ... those girls (les office postal) were hoping perhaps we'd at the very least become outdoor nature lovin' friends ... the male friend - is there really such a thing ??? she ponders. *Gay men of course the most excellent exception.

Now in the past (and fairly recent so) I would somehow try to make this all my fault. You know the I'm not ____ enough list or the I'm way too _____ list that we can conjure up on a dime to reaffirm to ourselves that some how we're just not worthy. But it's funny I don't feel that way this morning. I feel more confident and excepting of who I am then I can ever remember feeling (and these differences in compatibility were fairly glaring - that does help -wink). I don't feel apologetic for being the quirky (I know that's putting it mildly), shy, possibly reclusive (who am I kidding), way left of centre, animal loving freak that I am, or who I most often show up to be in this tiny rural (underlined) village - a fish out of water, I am, and with a view of the harbour. Sigh. But ... you know there are people in this little village, at least a couple, like the girls in the post office - who love me just the way I am.

A big reason for this new found confidence in who I am and what I'm all about is because of this blog. This blog has shown me who I am ... It's definitely a journal, my journal and I'm pretty wide open here and have been since the beginning. I talk about how I feel about everything and I don't hold back much. I've never been good at that - holding back my feelings. I've always been that Heart on Sleeve girl. Many of you have been here with me, with us, for a long, long time and many of you comment daily (which I love) and let me know that either you've felt the same feelings, that you understand or you send your support and love. Over time it's helped me tremendously to grow and become a much stronger confident person. I know that most of you who visit are women (with the wonderful exception of Mmmm and recent new visitor Pink Cowboy), and most a similar age and like character to moi which is tres comforting - birds of a feather and all. It's days like today, this new bon jour that I want to say a really BIG thank you ... to all of you.

merci mon amis !!

You know the drill ... more java, bubbles & scent and a day blissfully spent building that darn ol' Creative Empire with the constant company of my family of animals.