beauty & evolution

beauty - Cavallini Butterfly Calendar - July 2008

The events in our lives happen in a sequence of time,
but in their significance to ourselves, they find their own order ...
the continuous thread of revelation

Eudora Welty

a continuous thread of revelation ... evolution
& I'm hoping for a quiet simple revolution ... in me

I'm taking a break from blogging.
Updates of my work & etsy shop can be found here

about writing Morning Pages page 11 the Artists Way by Julia Cameron

All that angry, whiny, petty stuff that you write down in the morning stands between you and your creativity. Worrying about the job, the laundry, the funny knock in the car, the weird look in your lover's eye–this stuff eddies through our subconscious and muddies our days. Get it down on paper.

The morning pages are the primary tool of creative recovery. As blocked artists, we tend to criticize ourselves mercilessly. Even if we look like functioning artists to the world, we feel we never do enough and what we do isn't right. We are the victims of our own internalized perfectionist, a nasty internal and eternal critic, the Censor, who resides in our left brain and keeps up a constant stream of subversive remarks that are often disguised as the truth. The Censor says wonderful things like: "You call that writing? what a joke. You can't even punctuate. If you haven't done it by now you never will. You can't even spell. What makes you think you can be creative ?" And on and on ...

My own nasty Censor has recently begun invading my blog space and I find myself feeling increasingly self conscious here and that's not good. I'm sure I will continue to post photographs of my life on a fairly regular basis but I'm thinking I'll be pouring my words, thoughts and feelings into a more private space - my morning pages. It's an evolution that makes complete sense to me at this moment and here's hoping that it might just lead to a little ol' revolution.

It feels sad & strange to say goodbye because in many ways I do believe this blog has saved my life. Thank you to you, you know who you are, those of you who held me up when I was falling, who comforted me through so much grief and sadness. Who made me "snort" & smile & laugh. Thank you ! Thank you ! Merci !!