somewhere

palest blues and chocolate brown

Ache & Sadness, Worry & Fret, Anxiety & Fear, near constant companions of mine for as long as I can remember, seem to all be on an extended hiatus. I see glimpses of them every now and then, as if their number keeps showing up on my call display. I know that they still exist but they're not at all playing havoc with my life at present. Where did they go I wonder ? How long will they be gone and will they come back ... ever ? I pondered these big questions as I walked with the sisters under the stars and a half moon this early morning. Winnie & Piper walked and sniffed and stopped and sniffed while I thought about life. My life. This morning it occurred to me that after so many years of yearning for somewhere. Finally, I have somewhere ... somewhere big and important for all of my love to go.

The pressure of so much accumulated love, backed up and overflowing, had me feeling a kind of stress - many negative emotions were wreaking havoc. Now that dam has been wonderfully breached. Love flows easily and freely from me - it's all around me, keeping me afloat. It feels Perfect and Right ...and it makes me feel almost nothing but Happy & Safe.

This mornings early morning coffee chatter - Sadness - a Tragic Sense of Life ? or the existence of a Pain Body. ? Shut Up !! Y'all know how much this girl sure does love a deep, humdinger of a conversation ... especially over morning coffee. Sighing.