oppositeness

along our early morning walking route - patches of brilliant blue tiny flowers just up

Some of your hurts you have cured,
And the sharpest you still have survived,
But what torments of grief you endured
From the evil which never arrived.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

sigh ...

something that I've mentioned to best friend and designer gal MLou many, many times is that I should put into practice a policy of oppositness when it comes to some of the things that I ponder (especially the all too common negative variety of my thoughts and beliefs - the ones that are stuck like splinters, worrying away and becoming mildly infected) because so, SO ... so often in my life, those thoughts that I have convinced myself are surely absolutely, without a doubt, truths (because I have collected an abundance of evidence and tucked it away in my ever vivid imagination) turn out to be the exact opposite. Clunk. It happens all the time.

Recently I've had one of these big opposite revelations when it comes to my No. 1 customer. My bread, butter, milk & cat food customer. The design director who I had been working with for 8 years was retiring. Eek ! I'd never worked with anyone else at this particular company. Doom n' Gloom settled in. The train of thoughts began. She'll leave, the work, my work will dry up completely ... (let's see where this goes) I'll be destitute, I'll lose my house. Where will I live ? I'll have to get a job as a cashier at the grocery store and see, deal and be nice to People all day long. That will kill me and then what will I do ?? And on ... and on ... Oh yeah !! it's a very l-o-n-g train this one is.

In truth, yet again, I've been proved tres wrong and it's turned out to be just the opposite.

Oppositeness at work - I'm working with two new women and the experience thus far appears to be even better than the previous 8 year (mostly) fabulous stint. Lots of new and increasingly challenging new projects with fantastic detailed art direction. Shut ! Up !!!

If only I would remember to apply this policy the next time that darn train is leaving the station.