this life of mine

desolate & beautiful from the lawn of Thinkers Lodge / free, free / grey beauty, frozen beauty / asters / along the boardwalk / crow tracks / winter lichen love / from the far back corner of our big beautiful fenced in backyard / pine / behind Monty's - Emporium of Secondhand & Vintage Goodness / puddle love

Beauty & sadness always go together.
Nature thought beauty too rich to go forth
Upon the earth without a meet alloy.

George MacDonald

I am filled with sadness, I feel quite lost. I feel I'd most like to lay under our big weeping willow in the dark and sleep for a very long time but I'm realizing, finally, finally that these feelings are just that - feelings. A series of still frames, a snippet, from the ongoing movie that is my life. The plot is extremely complicated at times with many twist & turns, it's filled with lots of good guys & of course the odd villain. I must remember to sit tight, take a few deep breaths and await as patiently as possible, the next upcoming scene … because I know not what it is. I must continually remind myself that this is a story that truly keeps even me on the edge of my seat, sometimes hanging on for dear life.

Have a mentioned how grateful I am to have my entire to-date movie (maybe we should call it a mini-series ;-), my adored blog, all 6.5 years of it back. Among many other things it is my visual gratitude journal. Having it back with me, is such a gift, that I can be once again reminded of just how far I have come, how sad I've been, how that sadness passed, how hard I've worked, how brave I've been, how I've struggled and triumphed & struggles some more but especially I'm reminded of how much beauty I can always manage to find everywhere in this life of mine.

They say everything will be alright in the end
If it isn't alright … then it isn't the end

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