My Winnie Dixon enjoying our big beautiful & very green fenced in backyard
Grief reunites you with what you've lost. It's a merging; you go with the loved thing or person that's going away. You follow it a far as you can go. Philip K. Dick
You just can't prepare yourself for the missing them part, for the missing her, my Winnie Dixon. You can't imagine how many times a day you'll think that they're still here but they're not. I guess I'm having a bit of a delayed reaction. I thought I was prepared for lots of things but I couldn't prepare for this.
thinking of you .... tail wags ~moose
ReplyDeleteWe are never prepared, nor do we ever get over it. I'm glad you you were here today. I was thinking about you and wondered how you were doing. Take care. xo
ReplyDeletePS. Forgot to add. That is a beautiful photo!!! Makes you wonder what Ms. Winnie was thinking about.
ReplyDeleteGracie and I are sending you a great big furry (the Gracie part), sympathetic (from both of us) hug. The "getting used to it" IS the hardest part.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to read about Winnie Dixon, and I am thinking of you. I cannot imagine how you feel and I hope what I am about to say is not said out of place, but when I lost my first dog, even though it was his time, I was so unprepared for all the feelings I felt. How could I feel that way, when I had grieved less for other human losses?
ReplyDeleteTo get through and to remember him I wrote (through many tears) my memories in a special book that is private and as only ever been read by me. All the things that made me love him. His funny traits. Our adventures together. All the little thoughts that came to me in the middle of the night, or unexpectedly as I thought I was doing OK. As the years have passed, I now go back to that book without sadness. I read my words (written at a time when I felt so very low) with fond memories and smiles, knowing those little details are not lost forever.
With your amazing artistic ability have you considered creating a special piece of art in honour of WD. Something private, just for you to take with you to your new house – the real essence of Winnie Dixon, a record what WD meant to you. Words, drawings, whatever you choose. There will be tears as you grieve (these are the tears you need to shed – an unknown number of tears until you smile again) as you remember so many different things -perhaps consider using this time and the love you have for WD to create your own very personal tribute to WD.
Take good care of yourself,
Fran
Grief is so personal and has no timeline. I grieve way too long (according to some friends) but I think I grieve just the right amount of time. I have this on my fridge - it helps me:
ReplyDeleteEverything that has a beginning has an ending. Make your peace with that and all will be well.
A beautiful photo of your Winnie Dixon in the green of your garden. I don't think we are ever prepared for the grief we experience when we lose a beautiful girl like Winnie. The most difficult part is thinking that they are still with you and looking for them, she is still in your memories and your heart dear Susan, I am so sorry for the hurt you are experiencing. It takes a long time to let go of the love and friendship you shared together over all of those years...I hope peace and calm comes to you soon.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and sending much love,
Dianne xoxoxo ♡
Thank you my friends for leaving such wonderful messages here in the comments. Thank you to those of you who've written me emails sweet Dianne (xoxo), Sybil, Rachel, Kathie ... I'm sorry if I've left anyone out. I think I'm going to take a wee break from my blog ... a few days, a week tops. I love this photo so much of my girl Dee I want to leave it here for awhile longer. She looks so happy & peaceful & content in her giant garden of green. I promise I will reply to those emails soon 'though I know that a reply is not expected. This blog is such a haven for me & in so many ways. My wonderful net of memories, photos, words and all the amazing friends I've gathered ! some of you I've known now for years & others are still brand new. Thank you all xoxoxoxo Susan & gang
ReplyDeleteWe understand. Take the time you need and consider yourself HUGGED.
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful. The photo and your giving yourself time. It's a big sorrow. I can only guess at how big it is for you, because I am feeling sadness, too, just from seeing her and her lovely spirited self in your photos. I love what Fran said about creating a special tribute. I will remember that for the next time I am dealing with a loss, writing down our thoughts (or drawing them) must be so therapeutic. Take good care, Susan. Thinking of you and WD.
ReplyDeleteAs much as one tries, even when knowing it, one can never be prepared for such loss. I am so sorry.
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