doing difficult

more winter wonderland photos from the last few days avec les much loved chiens Winnie Dixon & Samuel LeonBerger

It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things.

Leonardo da Vinci

The thing about doing difficult this year of tres challenging is …

Yeah sure when you're in the midst of doing difficult it's pure torture - it's crammed with doubt, angst & insecurities. It's all stirred together with shame, regret & worry. There are lots of times when you want to fling yourself off your spinning office chair onto the floor and wave the white flag of failure. You want to yell or whisper or both - I am failing - I can't do this.

But thankfully you know yourself well. You know deep down inside that quitting's not an option, you listen to your heart, you depend on your intuition & you keep on going. You keep on doing difficult. You go for walks, try to meditate, make mistakes, take deep breaths, you struggle, talk to close friends, make a few more mistakes, write in your journal and you keep on doing difficult until it's done.

And then … omg ! when you've actually done difficult, when you've made it through doing difficult, when you've finished with this current round of difficult ('cause you know without a doubt there's always more difficult just up ahead). Well then, let me tell you, you will feel absolutely thrilled, proud, amazed at your self, content, confident, happy, did I mention proud ;-) and you will realize that it was worth every single difficult moment to end up with this new knowledge & confidence that you are capable of doing really hard things. Best lesson ever.

It's definitely gonna be a white Christmas here and I'm officially on vacation !!!! for 2 weeks
Let the 2014 planning, dreaming, scheming, goal setting & one little word choosing begin - woo hoo !!