faith, grace, love ...

from today's early morning snowy walk, blue & orange, & golden and my love, LOVE Miss Winnie - she loves this weather ;-)

It's incredibly touching when someone who seems so hopeless finds a few inches of light to stand in and makes everything work as well as possible. All of us lurch and fall, sit in the dirt, are helped to our feet, keep moving, feel like idiots, lose our balance, gain it, help others get back on their feet, and keep going.

Anne Lamott - from Grace Eventually: Thoughts on Faith

Honestly I mentioned fumbling the other day, have I mentioned also falling, slipping, bumbling, tripping, bumping into walls (almost as if I was blindfolded), getting back up dusting myself off and confidently (kind of) trudging off in a new direction only to trip, fall and smack into another wall - it's been that kind of year, especially the last few months. omg ! talk about your trial by fire ! 

I  also mentioned recently that I was kinda crushin' on Rob Bell, crushing on him I think because he makes Christianity almost make sense to me … and that felt miraculous & shocking and a kind of HUGE gigantic relief to me, especially at this point in my life, a blanket, a comfort. "you mean Christianity doesn't have to be or mean  that crazy, cruel Right Wing, Tea Party, Fox news,  judgemental, evil, homophobic, hypocritical thing that it's seemed to me to be. Hmmmmm. Wow!" well now  … that's is indeed an opening, that's a new door, another option, another hope, a comfort and let's face it - Rob Bell himself is slick , young at heart,  handsome & tres convincing plus everything he does (books, website, etc) is absolutely gorgeously designed (sadly & perhaps shallowly that counts for lots in my books). He's hip & he's happenin'.

But … I realize now, when I mentioned I was crushin on Rob Bell that that feeling of crushing on him doesn't hold a candle to how I feel about Anne Lamott (I know, I know late, late, late to the Anne L game) but Thanks Wow !! - I'm madly in love with her, her words, her voice & her perspective on life. I could listen/read her words & thoughts all day long, every day, over & over again. She soothes me like drugs do. Just introducing me to the idea that I could choose Faith (in whatever form Faith chooses me or I choose  it) instead of my usual attempted maniacal control. Bonjour Faith … I think I like you way better than attempted crazed control. Faith, grace, love … failure, Faith, grace, love … failure. I think I'm getting the hang of this.

Faith instead of fumbling, flailing, falling, bumbling. Thanks ! Wow ! Phew !

love to all ! & happy holiday weekend to my USA friends


I do not understand the mystery of grace -
only that it meets us where we are and does not leave us where it found us.


Anne Lamott

New to Anne Lamott  ? start here with this lovely, fantastic interview with writer Ann Patchett