thoughts on grief

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

seed heads x 5 clematis Nelly Moser taken Sunday afternoon during a wee outside sunshiny break from the madness

grief is the end of normal
Brené Brown

an exact & near perfect definition.

Winnie's had a good morning a slow, deliberate, short saunter down into the park + she ate her breakfast (with dose of Metacam anti-inflammatory) we senior dog lovers know that an appetite is always a good thing, now she's snoozing contentedly in her cozy bed under my desk, and I love her.

She has been my everyday normal for nearly 14 years (adopted at just 1). She is so much my normal, she is with me absolutely every minute of every day unless I'm away & I've made the decision to not go away, anywhere again until …

she misses me too much, she's a special needs dog that's why she found me. If I leave my desk, no matter how sound her sleep she attempts to follow me. I love her with all of my heart and I am Grateful (big ol' capital G) that she has shared my life for nearly 14 years, Jan 10 2014 will be our anniversary, Grateful, grate-full that she has lived to be a very old dog & Grateful for our many adventures together, most of them documented here in my great big gratitude journal blog.

Grief, as I read somewhere once, is a lazy Susan. 
One day it is heavy and underwater, and the next it spins and stops at loud and rageful, and the next day wounded keening, and the next day numbness, silence.
Anne Lamott

I'm hoping to be finished with this big, expansive, wonderful & tres challenging project by the end of this week (fingers, toes & all paws crossed here at CEHQ*). Listening to Anne Lamott (youtube) on heavy repeat is saving me this week, buoying me up, keeping me afloat until that glorious time arrives each and every day - bedtime ;-)

+my absolute favourite Royal Wood song

*CEHQ - Creative Empire Head Quarters


  1. Wishing you and Winnie as much time together as humanely possible. Love to you both.

  2. thank you so much ! I know you are "with" us BH on this journey. ps. have you read or listened to any Anne Lamott - oh my she is such a kindred spirit.
    much love & gratitude to you, xoxox S & Miss D

  3. Lovely photos, beautiful song (which I shall pass on....). You know I understand your feelings for Miss D, having been there myself with beloved companions, and my heart goes out to you as her time draws ever nearer. What memories you will have though!
    I feel we've lost touch a little in the past year; I must write soon. x

  4. I brace myself for the news that will one day come each time I read one of your posts.

    Every good day with Miss Winnie is a gift to treasure.

  5. I gasp at your photos and I send love. I really will call, now that I finally stopped by. Love her tender, be good to yourself. xo

  6. Oh Susan -oh my!... it takes bravery to deal with grief.
    I sent you a little something a while ago - I hope you receive it soon.
    You can tell by the comments that you are thought of often...and across oceans too.X

  7. Susan, my heart is there with you and Miss Winnie, too. So glad that you are celebrating every moment of her life while she is here with you now. So many people have been touched by her lovely visage through your blog and the gorgeous photos you share...

  8. Wonderful seed heads, they are very beautiful.
    I think of you and Winnie every day and hope that you have many more beautiful and treasured times together.
    much love and hugs to you both dear Susan.
    xoxoxo ♡


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