fumbling

today 3pm - the afternoon light in my studio/office here at CEHQ* is spectacular + somebody's gotta new screensaver ;-)

There's freedom in hitting bottom, in seeing that you won't be able to save 
or rescue your daughter, her spouse, his parents, or your career, relief in admitting you've reached the place of great unknowing. This is where restoration can begin, because when you're still in the state of trying to fix the unfixable, everything bad is engaged: the chatter of your mind, the tension of your physiology, all the trunks and wheel-ons you carry from your past. It's exhausting, crazy making.

Help. Help us walk through this. Help us come through.

Help. It is the first great prayer.

Anne Lamott - Help Thanks Wow / The Three Essential Prayers

& I say a big ol' Amen to that and also to Anne Lamott watch/listen to her here Thanks Wow for her ! It's a tiny book Help Thanks Wow, it's a gobble with pleasure in one sitting book, it's a read over and over & over again book, it's funny, it's comforting … it's about learning to have faith. It's about learning to live faithfully … even when, or especially when you're fumbling & bouncing back up from the latest bottom.

In one of her books or in one of her many youtube book chats she mentions a favourite Samuel Beckett quote, also so very fitting for this current fumbling, bouncing feeling of mine.

Try again. Fail again. Fail better.

Samuel Beckett

*CEHQ - Creative Empire HeadQuarters